On the natur of persevering, pt.III
A contemplation through poetry, in three (maybe even four) parts. Dedicated to beloved Jona - a big-city witch, with an even bigger heart. May your shadow find light, and turn to gold, my dear.
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Talk with the Self
Written September of 2025, Published November of 2025
You are hurting, my dear,
I can see,
but do you wish to give up,
indefinitely?
I can see you are hurting,
I understand,
but do you truly want to give up,
in the end?
Yes! Every fucking day I want to give up!
But, my dear, consider this:
Giving up,
in the grand scheme
of things,
means
they
would win.
And you are -
along with
everything else -
petty,
and full of spite.
The saying
"I'd rather die,
then let you succeed!"
is a fallacy.
And it does not
apply to you,
my dear.
What the saying
should be,
and what
most definitely
applies to you,
you see,
is this:
"I'd rather live;
and live
and live on,
then see you
succeed.
I'd rather
out-live you,
for an eternity,
than see you
victorious
in your cruelty."
And that, my dear,
can be accomplished
on pettiness
and spite
alone.
You don't
have to be
graceful,
you don't
have to be
the bigger person,
you don't
have to
do it all
while saintly smiling,
sitting in harmony
with it all,
like a Buddha.
You can be
enlightened
and enraged;
how do you think
Buddha came about?
Promise me this, dear:
you give up,
but only after
you succeed.
And if you need
to find coping
in anger
and in rage,
in sadness -
do.
That's what
they are
meant for, too.
Find solace
in them
and
use them;
to fuel the spite,
the pettiness.
Fuel it
till it becomes
a forest fire.
And don't worry
about suffocating,
my love.
In your
smallest parts,
you are
indistinguishable
from that fire,
you
will
not
burn.
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